Megan Thee Stallion became emotional as she tested against Tory Lanez, who isaccused of shooting her in the foot in July 2020.
During the second day of the trial on Tuesday, Megan took the stand with LosAngeles County Deputy District Attorney Kathy Ta, who asked the rapper ifshe’s having a hard time opening up.
“I’m having a really difficult time sitting up here telling my story andhaving to sit across [from] people who have made up lies about me and havingto [sit] across from Tory,” Megan responded.
Getting emotional, Megan added, “I try to be strong. I don’t like to lookweak. I don’t want to give them the power that they’ve taken from me for thelast three years.”
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Ta asked Megan to recall the events of the alleged shooting, with the “WAP”hitmaker reiterating, “I heard the gunshot. I don’t know how many, but feelslike it went on forever.”
She told Ta that she heard multiple gunshots before Ta played an audiorecording of them, which Megan confirmed sounded like the events of the night.
“I’ve never been shot at before in my life,” Megan said, explaining that shesaw Lanez shooting “at me.”
“As soon as he started shooting, I put my head down,” Megan said, stating thatshe lowered her head because “I was scared, and I didn’t move.”
According to Megan, “He said, ‘Dance bitch,’ and I turned to him and saw himshoot.”
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Megan said once officers arrived, her fear grew as they had guns, and she wasscared they would also shoot her. She noted that she didn’t see her friend atthe time, Kelsey.
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“Nobody cared I was bleeding. Felt like I don’t matter,” Megan said, tearfullyexplaining her reaction when officers arrived, handcuffing her and putting heron a gurney. “Nobody cares what is happening to me right now.”
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Megan remained teary for the rest of Ta’s questioning, stating her frustrationwith how the case has played out, especially among male musicians.
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“Every man in a position of power in the music industry has taken his side,”said Megan, referring to the support Lanez has received in the time since theincident.
“Not a day goes by without being called a liar,” she continued. “This wholething is about who I was having sex with, not who shot me, and I don’t knowwhy.”
Ta then dug into how Megan was a rising star when the incident took place andhow she feels it has changed the trajectory of her life.
“I just did a song with Beyoncé, and now she knows I got shot,” said Megan,explaining she “didn’t want to say anything” out of embarrassment. “I just didsomething I’ve always wanted, and now it’ll be overshadowed…. This situationhas been worse for me while he’s more popular — I’ve turned into a type ofvillain while he’s a hero.”
Asked if she was more popular and successful than Lanez at the time of thealleged shooting, she confidently said “Yes,” which caused Lanez’s blank faceto turn into a startled and dismayed reaction, eventually mouthing “Okay” asshe continued on the stand .
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“I’m embarrassed because I’m a grown woman hanging with people I have nobusiness hanging out with,” she said about her regrets about the incidenttaking place. “Now look at how everybody want to view me…. How could I sharemy body with someone who would shoot me… Now every week there’s an articlecalling me a ‘hoe.’ “
Megan revealed earlier in the day that she and Lanez had a sexual relationshipat the time of the incident, something she has denied up until this point.
She added that the negative attention is also impacting her boyfriend,Pardison Fontaine.
“I feel disgusted, I feel dirty, my own partner is embarrassed,” Megan said ofFontaine having to see the continued coverage of her sexual history.
She said in an effort to avoid talking about the alleged shooting, “I can’teven be happy… I don’t want to talk to friends or family.”
“I don’t want to live,” she said, loud but emotional. “I wish he had just shotand killed me if I had to go through this torture.”
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Ta ended her questioning on Megan’s relationship with Kelsey. Megan said sheno longer has a relationship with her former friend, explaining they fell out”probably in 2020″ when Kelsey “met with Tory after he shot me… They went andturned the story around.”
Though Megan said she told Kelsey she felt “betrayed” when they met up, sheadded that she has no doubt that it was Lanez, not Kelsey, who allegedly shother that night.
Lanez’s attorney, George Mgdesyan, then began cross-examination, pressingMegan on details of that night and differences in statements she gave policeand prosecutors since the incident took place.
When Mgdesyan asked Megan if she lied about her and Lanez’s relationshipduring a previous interview with Gayle King, as well as to police andprosecutors, she said matter-of-factly, “Yes.”
Mgdesyan also asked Megan if she ever told police about her earlier claimsthat Lanez said he’d give her $1 million for her silence and that he told herhe was already on probation. She explained that she never did.
Lanez, real name Daystar Peterson, was charged in October 2020 with one felonycount each of assault with a semiautomatic firearm, personal use of a firearmand carrying a loaded, unregistered firearm in a vehicle. He pleaded notguilty to both charges in November 2020.
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