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Justin Timberlake is celebrating his 10th anniversary of being married toJessica Biel.

In honor of the significant milestone, the “SexyBack” singer shared a carouselof images via Instagram on Wednesday featuring throwback photos of the couplefrom various times and places throughout their relationship. Biel also took tosocial media and posted a series of photos — before revealing the pairrecently renewed their wedding vows.

“10 years ain’t enough!” he wrote in the caption. “You make me a betterhusband and father every day! I love you so much you beautiful human! Run itback!”

The post included a recent snapshot of the couple getting glammed up for ared-carpet date night attending the Children’s Hospital of Los Angeles (CHLA)Gala earlier this month.

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One clip features the pair adorably recreating the iconic pasta kissing scenefrom the 1955 animated classic Lady and the Tramp while sitting in arestaurant. Another photo shows the duo posing next to each other whilepicking grapes at a vineyard.

Timberlake, 41, also included a photo of the pair from their appearance atParis Fashion Week this year serving a bold look for the Dior Homme show.

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Echoing the same sentiment, Biel, 40, reposted the singer’s post via herInstagram Story, tagging him, while writing “10 Years ❤️” in the caption.

the candy star then shared a series of photos to her own Instagram page,including one of her wearing a white gown covered by a robe — which sherevealed was taken before a recent wedding vow renewal ceremony.

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“From our wedding vow renewal this summer — in Italy where it all went down(and in @giambattistavalliparis again!) ” she wrote alongside the photo on herInstagram Story.

Biel’s IG grid post featured images of the pair posing in several picturesqueoutdoor locations and hanging at home in matching hoodies as well as the pre-vow-renewal shot.

“Being married to you is the adventure of a lifetime! Run it back, baby. RUNIT BACK. I love you,” she captioned the post.

The couple who share two sons — Silas Randall, 7, and Phineas, 2 — tied theknot in Fasano, Italy in 2012.

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In June, Biel celebrated Timberlake on Father’s Day, sharing a rare candidfamily photo with their two boys. “To the world, you are a dad,” she wrote inthe caption at the time.

“But to your family, you are the world,” Biel added. “I don’t know who saidthat, but whomever it was, they bodied that s—. We love you baby. Thank youfor being our everything!”

In May, the actress shared the secret to her long-lasting marriage withTimberlake.

“Well, I’ll have to give Justin the credit in this moment, for this one thingthat he always says to me: ‘We might be married, but we have to keep dating,’and it’s so true,” Biel told Entertainment Tonight at the time.

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“You just have to keep making time for each other and you have to keep makingeach other a priority. And do the things that you love together.”

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“It’s not always easy, as we all know, but those touchpoint moments make allthe hard times palatable,” she added.

NEW YORK (AP) — A jury sided with Kevin Spacey on Thursday in one of thelawsuits that derailed the film star’s career, finding he did not sexuallyabuse Anthony Rapp, then 14, while both were relatively unknown actors inBroadway plays in 1986.

The verdict in the civil trial came with lightning speed. Jurors at a federalcourt in New York deliberated for a little more than an hour before decidingthat Rapp hadn’t proven his allegations.

When the verdict was read, Spacey dropped his head, then hugged his lawyers.He didn’t speak to reporters as he left the courthouse.

“We’re very grateful to the jury for seeing through these false allegations,”said his attorney, Jennifer Keller.

“What’s next is mr. Spacey is going to be proven that he’s innocent ofanything he’s been accused of. That there was no truth to any of theallegations,” she added, a reference to other sexual misconduct claims againstthe actor, including criminal charges in England.

During the trial, Rapp testified that Spacey had invited him to his apartmentfor a party, then approached him in a bedroom after the other guests left. Hesaid the actor, then 26, picked him up and briefly laid on top of him on abed.

Rapp tested that he wriggled away and fled as an inebriated Spacey asked if hewas sure he wanted to leave.

In his sometimes-tearful testimony, Spacey told the jury it never happened,and he would never have been attracted to someone who was 14.

The lawsuit sought $40 million in damages.

Rapp and his lawyers also left the courthouse without speaking to reporters.In his closing statements to the jury Thursday, Rapp’s lawyer, RichardSteigman, accused Spacey of lying on the witness stand.

“He lacks credibility,” Steigman said. “Sometimes the simple truth is thebest. The simple truth is that this happened.”

Rapp, 50, and Spacey, 63, each tested over several days at the three-weektrial.

Rapp’s claims, and those of others, abruptly interrupted what had been asoaring career for the two-time Academy Award winning actor, who lost his jobon the Netflix series “House of Cards” and saw other opportunities dry up.Rapp is a regular on TV’s “Star Trek: Discovery” and was part of the originalBroadway cast of “Rent.”

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Spacey faced charges in Massachusetts that he groped a man at a bar —allegations that were later dropped by prosecutors.

Three months ago, he pleaded not guilty in London to charges that he sexuallyassaulted three men between 2004 and 2015 when he was the artistic director atthe Old Vic theater in London.

A judge in Los Angeles this summer approved an arbitrator’s decision to orderSpacey to pay $30.9 million to the makers of “House of Cards” for violatinghis contract by sexually harassing crew members.

The Associated Press does not usually name people alleging sexual assaultunless they come forward publicly, as Rapp has done.

At the trial, Spacey testified that he was sure the encounter with Rapp neverhappened, in part because he was living in a studio apartment rather than theone bedroom that Rapp cited, and he never had a gathering beyond ahousewarming party.

“I knew I wouldn’t have any sexual interest in Anthony Rapp or any child. ThatI knew,” he told judges.

During her closing arguments to the jury, Keller suggested reasons Rappimagined the encounter with Spacey or made it up.

It was possible, she said, that Rapp invented it based on his experienceperforming in “Precious Sons,” a play in which actor Ed Harris picks up Rapp’scharacter and lays on top of him, mistaking him briefly for his wife beforediscovering it is his son.

She also suggested that Rapp later grew jealous that Spacey became a megastarwhile Rapp had “smaller roles in small shows” after his breakthroughperformance in Broadway’s “Rent.”

“So here we are today and Mr. Rapp is getting more attention from this trialthan he has in his entire acting life,” Keller said.

During two days of testimony, Spacey expressed regret for a 2017 statement heissued when Rapp first went public, in which he said he didn’t recall theencounter, but if it happened “I owe him the sincerest apology for what wouldhave been deeply inappropriate drunken behavior.”

Dabbed his eyes with a tissue, Spacey said he’d been pressured by publicistsand lawyers into issuing an empathetic statement at a time when the #MeToomovement made everyone in the industry nervous.

“I’ve learned a lesson, which is never apologize for something you didn’t do,”he said.

He also cried as he said he regretted revealing publicly that he was gay thesame day Rapp’s accusations surfaced because some interpreted his announcementas an effort to change the subject or deflect from Rapp’s revelations.

Spacey had testified that he spoke at the trial about deeply personal matters,telling the jury his father was a white supremacist and neo-Nazi who beratedhim as gay because he liked the theater.

Spacey also gave courtroom spectators a brief taste of his acting chops whenhe briefly imitated his Broadway costar at the time, Jack Lemon. He hadtestified earlier that his ability at impressions aided him in his actingcareer.

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This story has been updated to correct the day of the week in the leadparagraph to Thursday, not Tuesday.

Less than three weeks out from The Crown ‘s fifth season, Netflix hasdropped a trailer for the new episodes, whose cast is led by Imelda Stauntonas Queen Elizabeth II, Elizabeth Debicki as Princess Diana and Dominic West asPrince Charles.

The fifth season of The Crown is available Nov. 9 on Netflix. (Photo: KeithBernstein/Netflix)

The sweeping, Emmy award-winning drama, which imagines what went on behind-the-scenes at Buckingham Palace and elsewhere and recreates historic events,promises to delve into the final days of Diana and Charles’s unhappy marriage— and the fallout. “The royal family is in genuine crisis,” a voice says, as anewspaper leads with the headline, “Princess ‘will not go quietly.'” Thephrase uses Diana’s actual words from the BBC interview with Martin Bashirthat she sat for in 1995. We see the paparazzi’s obsession with Diana, too, asthey trail her, and she laments, “People will never understand how it’s reallybeen for me. I never stood a chance.”

At one point, Her Royal Highness tells her son, now King Charles III, “You, asfuture king, have a duty.”

The new clip arrived the day after actress Judi Dench, whom the late Queen> Elizabeth II honored several times, including with the title of Dame in> 1988, publicly called out the show for being “a hurtful account of history.”

In an open letter to The Times newspaper, Dench, who has played multipleroyals in her storied career and is reportedly friendly with Queen ConsortCamila, called for the show to add a disclaimer stating that it was a”fictionalized drama” at the beginning. She endorsed the words of formerBritish Prime Minister John Major, who has referred to the new season as a”barrel-load of nonsense.”

Sir John Major is not alone in his concerns that the latest series of TheCrown will present an inaccurate and hurtful account of history,” Denchwrote. “Given some of the wounding suggestions apparently contained in the newseries — that King Charles plotted for his mother to abdicate, for example, oronce suggested his mother’s parenting was so deficient that she might havedeserved a jail sentence — this is both cruelly unjust to the individuals anddamaging to the institution they represent.”

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Queen Elizabeth II honors Dame Judi Dench at Buckingham Palace on Oct. 26,2005. (Photo: Fiona Hanson/Pool/PA)

On Thursday’s episode of The View co-host Joy Behar argued that a disclaimeris unnecessary.

“This dame disagrees with Dame Judi Dench because they tell you at the topthat it is not a documentary, and if you have a brain, you can figure out thatthe writers have used history,” Behar said. “If it’s documented history, thenwe can believe it, but we’re not going to believe a conversation that’s goingon in the bedroom of Queen Elizabeth and Prince Philip. Nobody was there butthe two of them, so you don’t believe that part. But the historical part, youbelieve.”

Netflix defended its show in a statement this week: ” The Crown has alwaysbeen presented as a drama based on historical events. Series Five is afictional dramatization, imagining what could have happened behind closeddoors during a significant decade for the royal family — one that has beenscrutinized and well-documented by journalists, biographers and historians.”

Debicki told variety on Tuesday that show creator Peter Morgan and othersinvolved in making the hit show are thoughtful about its depictions, whichwill include Diana’s tragic death in a sixth season.

“Peter and the crew of this job do their entire utmost to really handleeverything with such sensitivity and truth and complexity, as do actors,” shesaid. “The amount of research and care and conversations and dialogue thathappen over, from a viewer’s perspective, something probably that you wouldnever ever notice, is just immense. From that very first meeting [with] Peter,I knew that I’d entered into this space where this was taken seriously [in] adeeply caring way.”

The new season of ** The Crown premieres. Nov. 9 on Netflix.**

Olivia Wilde and Jason Sudeikis’s former nanny is dishing even more dirt aboutthe exes and their dramatic breakup.

While the former couple, who are parents to Otis, 8, and Daisy, 6, cametogether earlier this week to issue a joint statement slamming the nanny’s”false” claims, the Daily Mail has released interview footage with theirformer employee, whose name has not been made public. In it, she challengesWilde’s timeline of the couple’s split, saying the _Don ‘t Worry Darling_director and actress was telling Sudeikis she loved him via text days beforeshe and Harry Styles went public with their relationship in early January2021. The nanny also talked about how twinned she became in the mess, withSudeikis talking to her about it for hours at night after the kids went to bedand becoming involved in their therapy sessions.

According to the nanny, who spent three years working for the couple, Wilde’sclaim that she and the Ted Lasso star split at the start of the pandemic wasuntrue. The employee claimed Wilde and Sudeikis were going strong just weeksbefore Wilde fell for Styles on the set of Don ‘t Worry Darling in October2020, and said Wilde and Sudeikis didn’t officially split until Nov. 8 (aroundthe time it was reported in the press).

The nanny pointed to images of Wilde wearing her engagement ring on Sept. 8,2020. She said she was with them on the trip to Malibu over Labor Day weekend.

“Why don’t you just … look at her ring on Labor Day weekend,” the nanny said.”This was right before she started seeing Harry. She’s wearing her engagementring from Jason and laughing as she’s on the beach.”

The nanny claimed that around that time Wilde told her she was planning tomarry Sudeikis within the year, expressing excitement that Daisy would be acute flower girl.

The nanny said Wilde then became smitten with Styles in October when _DWD_production began in Palm Springs, Calif., and started spending more time awayfrom home. The nanny brought Daisy to the set, because the child had a smallpart in the film, and she recalled Wilde being visibly “giddy” around Styles.At the start of November, Wilde moved into the Paramour Estate Hotel in LA,telling Sudeikis it was because of a COVID outbreak on the set. However, shebroke up with him soon after, on Nov. 8, during a visit to the house theyshared.

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As reported earlier this week in part one of the nanny’s interview, Sudeikisand Wilde broke up after a huge fight at their home. Wilde was preparing asalad with a “special dressing” that she was bringing to Styles, 10 years herjunior. Sudeikis was upset and filmed them fighting. Wilde claimed she was”scared” of Sudeikis. When Wilde tried to leave the home, Sudeikis thenallegedly laid on the ground under her car so she couldn’t drive to seeStyles. He later uncovered the full details of Wilde’s relationship withStyles by reading messages on an Apple Watch that she left behind at theirhome.

The nanny claimed Sudeikis was “erratic” and “unstable” after the blowup andbreakup. She also claims Wilde continued to string Sudeikis along. Wildeallegedly slept nude in the same bed as Sudeikis, swam naked in their pool andsend him texts claiming she loved him up until December 29, when Sudeikis, thenanny and kids flew to London so he could shoot Ted Lasson. (Wilde andSudeikis were photographed hugging after their reported split on Nov. 16. Theywere also pictured hugging on Dec. 20.)

It was just days after Sudeikis left for London that Wilde went public withStyles at a wedding. The nanny claimed she tried to contact Wilde thatweekend, but she claimed she had bad cell service. The nanny said she foundout about Wilde’s new relationship with Styles after seeing it on the cover ofa tabloid.

“I’m like, wait, how can you be holding hands with Harry and they’re takingpictures of you, and you’re a couple, but you just left?” the nanny recalledthinking.

The nanny also claimed that after Wilde and Styles’s relationship becamepublic, Wilde accused Sudeikis of being the source of a story that claimedWilde cheated on him with Styles.

The nanny said everything became even more complicated after Wilde went publicwith Styles. She was in London with Sudeikis, who would talk to her two hoursat night, after the kids were asleep, about his relationship woes. He’d alsotext her all day. (Some of the texts between them were previously revealed.)The nanny became involved in the former couple’s therapy sessions, sheclaimed.

“The way [the therapist explained Wilde leaving to] me and Jason is, we arereality,” the nanny said. “Her children, Jason, and myself were reality, soshe didn’t want to talk to us because she was living in a different worldnow.” The therapist also allegedly told the nanny, “Olivia is like an addictright now” — with an addiction to Styles — “so we have to treat her like anaddict to get her back to the family. It’s like having a drug addict come backto reality.”

The nanny felt put in the middle of everything. Sudeikis also had the nannystart seeing his life coach, so she had an outlet in which to discuss all thedrama she found herself pulled into. However, she recalled the coach askingher so many questions about Wilde that she started to be suspicious that itwas “manipulation” and they were trying to get information out of her to useagainst Wilde. “It was getting really weird,” she said, so she stopped talkingto the coach.

Wilde and Sudeikis, who haven’t been speaking amid their split and subsequentcustody battle, banded together Monday to respond to the nanny’s first part ofthe interview.

“As parents, it is incredibly upsetting to learn that a former nanny of ourtwo young children would choose to make such false and scurrilous accusationsabout us publicly,” they said. “Her now 18 month long campaign of harassingus, as well as loved ones, close friends and colleagues, has reached itsunfortunate apex. We will continue to focus on raising and protecting ourchildren with the sincere hope that she will now choose to leave our familyalone.”

Social media has been going crazy this week about the nanny revelations.People have been fascinated about what was in Wilde’s “special dressing,” inher salad for Styles, prior to an upset Sudeikis blocking her car with hisbody.

Wilde later posted to Instagram a salad dressing recipe, from Nora Ephron’s_heartburn_ playing into the frenzy.

(Screenshot: Olivia Wilde via Instagram)

And the frenzy continues. On Thursday, the brand Gray Poupon, which had itsmustard name-checked in the heartburn salad dressing recipe, capitalized onthe mention.

“You too could win someone over with a dash of Gray Poupon with our limitededition ‘Don’t Worry Dijon’ jars” — a play on Don ‘t Worry Darling — staytuned for how you can get your hands on one.” The image included the jardraped in a red boa, a nod to Styles.

In order to qualify for European aid, an industrial bakery in Ditrău, a townof 5,000 inhabitants in northern Romania, had to look for five additionalemployees in 2020. Because no one in the region was willing to fill the low-paid jobs, the management decided to bring workers from Sri Lanka. That wentdown the wrong way with many residents of Ditrău. The town’s pastor even fileda protest petition with 1,800 signatures.

The essence

• ‘RMN’ is the new film by Romanian filmmaker Cristian Mungiu, who won the Palme d’Or for the abortion drama ‘4 Months, 3 Weeks and 2 Days’ 15 years ago. * ‘RMN’ is based on a diverse fact about a town in Transylvania that reacts violently to the arrival of workers from Sri Lanka. * Mungiu wants to examine the complex relationships and frustrations of the region. ‘RMN’ means something like MRI, the device for making scans. * Mungiu also sees the film as a representation of the challenges in Europe in general. * ‘RMN’ is a fascinating, ambiguous and often virtuoso portrait of a community.

A blatant example of racism, but the situation was much more complex. And notjust because those Sri Lankans followed the example of so many Romanians:leaving their native region to earn more money in a foreign country. Thesetting was also more than symbolic. Ditrău is located in a part ofTransylvania where many people of Hungarian descent live, a population groupthat is a minority in Romania. ‘You would think that such a minority wouldadopt a tolerant and open-minded attitude towards people in need of an evensmaller minority. That turned out not to be the case,” director CristianMungiu noted.

Tensions and frustrations

He saw the incident as a perfect opportunity to broach much larger themes andto examine a complex situation. The title of his remarkable new film, ‘RMN’,also means something like MRI, a machine for making scans. Mungiu approachesthe story from two characters. Matthias is a Romanian man who works in aslaughterhouse in Germany and returns headlong to his home in Transylvaniawhen his young son has a traumatic experience. Csilla is a former flame ofMatthias and runs the bakery that angers some of the residents by hiringforeign workers.

Around these characters, Mungiu delicately weaves all kinds of tensions andfrustrations, from racism and sexism to nationalism and class distinction.Mungiu refuses to take any clear standpoints or draw conclusions, although heregularly highlights how petty and pathetic it all is.

“In the end we are doomed to live together,” he says. ‘You can’t changehistory. Take that nationalism. We will never settle the discussion about whothe original inhabitants of a region are. In Transylvania, the longstandingconflicts between Romanians and Hungarians still exist, in various forms.Completely ridiculous and sometimes really funny.’

Mungiu immediately adds that ‘RMN’ is definitely not a story that focuses on aremote corner of Romania. The discussions, problems and excesses he cites canalso be found in other countries. “It wouldn’t be fair to point the finger atTransylvania,” he says. “Xenophobia is not the exclusive fault of oneethnicity. We all have butter on our heads.’

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Globalization has certainly increased tensions in countries such as Romania.Mungiu does not deny that this evolution has brought benefits, but the coinalso has a downside. “We have more freedom to go where we want,” he says. Butglobalization has also created fear and uncertainty. Moreover, the changes arehappening faster than smaller and more traditional communities can follow.’

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The job of cinema and art is to talk about the things we prefer to avoid ineveryday life. “

Cristian Mungiu

Director ‘RMN’

This is particularly apparent during the (unparalleled) central scene of thefilm, a large meeting in the city’s banquet hall. Mungiu lets the discussionrun for 17 minutes. Everyone talks in different languages ​​at the same time.Yet you can perfectly follow what is going on.

The half-baked and politically incorrect arguments that characters make soundall too familiar. But that’s why we shouldn’t just brush them off, saysMungiu. ‘The job of cinema and art is to talk about the things we prefer toavoid in everyday life. Those arguments and clichés and lies exist. Politicalcorrectness and cancel culture will not make them disappear. We have to listenand enter into a dialogue.’

“Why don’t you try a little acid?” my good friend Olha asked. We were going toa rave in a warehouse in London, and I’d just told her I wasn’t feeling welland didn’t want to take anything that would make me sick. She offered me abouta quarter of a paper seal of LSD (a seal of LSD contains around 100 mcg onaverage).

Pretty soon I became cheerful, cheerful and chatty. Once at the rave, Iexperienced the lights and sound more intensely, but there was certainly nohallucination. I felt a smile on my face that I couldn’t resist. But was Ireally happy? I became aware that I was trying to laugh at the uncontrollablefeelings that the LSD brought up. Two years of corona, two years of working onmyself and a broken relationship were hard for me. In a room full of ravers Isuddenly felt lonely. That wasn’t what I wanted to feel on the dance floor,but I decided to let it be. After a few hours something clicked and I realizedthat I was not lonely at all, because I always had myself. The following weekI didn’t have a hangover, on the contrary: I had processed something andhadn’t felt so good in ages. This way of going out felt like a revelation.

In the past six months I have regularly encountered people in clubs within theelectronic music scene who replace other drugs with psychedelics – aphenomenon known as ‘California sober’. What drives people to do this?

According to Ton Nabben, criminologist and drug researcher at the HVA, thereis indeed a growing interest in psychedelics within the Dutch club circuit.“That’s mainly because there’s been more intellectual interest in psychedelicsin general for a few years now. Substances have become more widely known amongthe public and there is much discussion about their therapeutic uses in booksand lectures. Secondly, the threshold for taking it in a club has becomelower. People used to be careful about that because of the trip effect. Butnow they are experimenting with psychedelics in micro and medium (meso) doses,which has taught them how to use them in other settings. In these doses, itcan also be combined with other drugs.”

According to Nabben, the increased use of psychedelics is partly due to adesire for something new. “Users are now familiar with the peaks and waves ofXTC. But the experience you gain with psychedelics can be much richer. It doeseverything with your senses and creates new contact moments in a socialsetting like a club.” But according to the drug researcher, it also sayssomething about the uncertain times in which we find ourselves. “A lot ofthings are coming at us. Psychedelics can also be a way to get answers toquestions you have, to better understand things in your own environment, or tosee connections between all kinds of things that are going on at a moreabstract level of thought.”

Isabel (29) is from Amsterdam, works for the Nachtburgemeester Amsterdamfoundation and is a UX designer. Gaining new insights and experiences is animportant reason for her to take LSD more often. “When I go out I regularlyuse a quarter to a half stamp. It makes me happy, I live more in the moment, Iexperience music and light more intensely, and I have valuable conversationson it. That is very different for me than when I use ecstasy. I am oftenwithdrawn from that. The following week I usually don’t have a physical ormental hangover and sometimes I even feel really good. That’s nice, because Ilike to go out a lot.”

Nick (28) from Amsterdam is a DJ and works in the music industry. For a yearnow, he often uses magic mushrooms or magic mushrooms drops in the club whengoing out. “My parents divorced when I was twelve, there was a lot of tensionat home and I already found my way out at that age by playing at Thunderdome.There was a lot of alcohol and drugs used there and I started copying thatbehavior at a certain point. Since I was still young, this was alcohol atfirst. Later on, substances such as coke were added, which had quite a mentalrepercussion. This went on until I was twenty-four. Then I went to therapy.”In addition to his regular therapy, Nick participated in ayahuasca ceremoniesas a way to “go to the root” of the problem. He also started microdosingpsychedelics and at some point decided to use these substances during clubnights. “Going out should no longer be a form of escapism for me. My wholelife is in the nightlife: it is my job, my outlet and the place where I meetmy friends. Psychedelics mainly help me to get in touch and stay in touch withmyself. It helps me balance my life and not lose myself in the nightlife.”

Ruby* (25) lives in Amsterdam, is a maker in the creative industry and iscurrently graduating from the art academy. For over six years she has beenusing various psychedelics such as 2CB, LSD, DMT, truffles & rapé when goingout. She notices that this allows her to relax better when going out than whenusing other drugs. “For the past three years I have mainly used truffles. Ithelps me get out of my head and feel more. I feel calm, content. I have morecompassion for myself and other people. In the club I sometimes tend to getemotional when I have to wait a long time for the toilets, for example, orwhen I end up in a conversation with someone who is draining energy. Withtruffles you can easily put this aside.”

For Ruby, the use of these various resources also has a deeper meaning. “I usepsychedelics for pleasure, but also for healing. Before going clubbing, I takea short moment for myself to check how I’m feeling and what I want to get outof the evening. Why do I want to go? Am I worried about something? How furrydo I want to make it? What do I want to ‘look up’ or avoid? I am open toreceiving answers or confirmations. So it’s about feeling, recognizing myneeds and desires and being critical.” Ruby says going out on psychedelicsgives her insights into her own coping mechanisms, and that she’s less likelyto smoke, for example. “I feel that the dance floor and the synergy with themusic in itself enhances the potential to ‘capture’ such insights. You have tolearn to deal with yourself, with yourself in relation to acquaintances butalso to strangers. Because of the awareness it gives me, I can choose to dothings differently than usual at that moment.”

So for people like Ruby, the dance floor is not only a place to escape, butalso to meet yourself and become a better person. In recent years there hasbeen a lot of talk in the media about “agenda hedonists” (or in the words ofthe police: the yoga sniffers), who take controlled turns in the club atcarefully planned moments in their lives. Journalist Tom Grosfeld recentlywrote a book about this phenomenon, in which he describes how not only ourworking lives but also our private lives are organized as efficiently,effectively and productively as possible. Aren’t the ‘California frugal’ userswithin the productivity-oriented society we live in then the next move towardsan experience that you have to get something out of: the nightlife assomething to experience as efficiently as possible?

“Of course I also like to get out of my tights every now and then,” says Ruby,“but there are different ways to do that. Sometimes I still combine LSD, thenafter six hours I sometimes add a little bit of ecstasy or MDMA and then I gocrazy. At the same time, I also have to go out more consciously. I have a busylife and truffles are often a good option, because it doesn’t give me a dip orhangover and it brings me a lot.”

That is also a reason for Isabel. “If you go out two or three times a monthand work five days a week it is mentally and physically untenable to use othersubstances, then you have to look at other options. The alternation withpsychedelics ensures that going out remains fun and varied and in combinationwith work it remains sustainable.”

“At least it’s not like I think I want to go to hell, but let’s do it in aconscious way so I can feel good about it,” Nick says. “Mushrooms make me feelbetter than other drugs and they don’t hangover me. It’s a very differentexperience, but that experience is also a lot of fun. I firmly believe thatpsychedelics are more drugs than drugs, it just depends on how you use them.They have been used by indigenous peoples in ceremonies for millennia. Therethey danced around campfires, we dance at raves and in clubs. Actually, thoseare also a kind of rituals, only we use them for more hedonic and escapisticpurposes, while they can also be used for deep insights and therefore personalgrowth.”

Professor Nabben emphasizes the danger of psychedelics in addition to thepossible positive experiences that you can experience as a result. “It remainsa psychedelic that can turn the world upside down. For example, you sometimessee in the news that someone gets psychosis and serious accidents happen. Sothat can happen. You may be overdosing and panicking. But on the harmfulnessscale, they are less harmful compared to substances such as coke and alcohol.”Ruby, who has also had negative experiences with LSD, calls these moments anordeal. “Afterwards you realize that it is a trip from which you also learnsomething. Everything you see or feel is in you. So some things can beexperienced as scary, while it reflects something deeper. What I learned fromthis is that psychedelics hold up a mirror to you.” Nick names another adverseeffect of psychedelics in the club. “When I’m at a party and it starts to wearoff, I really want to go home,” Nick says. “You get tired faster compared toother drugs.”

Good to know: psychedelics can be dangerous in higher doses and for peoplewho are prone to psychosis. The experiences described above are onlyexperiences of a handful of people. Never use alone. Not every body is thesame and drugs work differently for everyone. Therefore, always have yourdrugs tested to determine your dosage and do not take the experiences anddosages above as an example.

*Ruby is an alias, she only wanted to be interviewed anonymously for herprivacy. Her real name is known to the editors.

Gwyneth Paltrow wasn’t prepared for the emotions she would experience during apivotal moment in her daughter’s life.

The actress and Goop founder, 50, chatted with PEOPLE during the GwynethPaltrow x Copper Fit Feel the Fit Press Day in Santa Monica, California, onWednesday evening, where she opened up about sending daughter Apple BlytheMartin to college for the first time.

“It was horrible. It was truly horrifying,” Paltrow tells PEOPLE exclusively.”I was sick to my stomach, bursting into tears.”

The mother of two notes she “getting more and more used to” her only daughterbeing away at school, especially after seeing “how happy she is and settled”during a recent “parents weekend” visit.

At least one other visit has happened since. “She came home for October breakjust last weekend, so that was amazing,” Paltrow adds. “I see her, but not asmuch as I’d like. I’d like to see her every day, but I’m so happy for her.She’s doing great.”

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Paltrow welcomed Apple in 2004 with ex-husband Chris Martin, whom she splitfrom in 2014. They also share a 16-year-old son, Moses, while the Shakespearein Love actress is also stepmom to husband Brad Falchuk’s two children: sonBrody and daughter Isabella.

Back in June, Paltrow congratulated her daughter on her high school graduationby sharing a photo from the special day on her Instagram Story at the time. Init, the star could be seen posing beside Apple and Martin, 45.

“Congratulations to all of the graduates especially @applemartin,” she wrote,adding a “Class of 2022” sticker under the sweet family photo.

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Just a month before, the Academy Award winner celebrated Apple’s 18thbirthday. On Instagram, Paltrow shared a picture of the teen posing in frontof a mirror, writing in the caption how “proud” she is of Apple.

“18. I’m a bit of a loss for words this morning (😭). I could not be moreproud of the woman you are. You are everything I could have dreamed of and somuch more,” she said. “Proud doesn’t cover it, my heart swells with feelings Ican’t put in to words. You are deeply extraordinary in every way.”

“Happy birthday my darling girl. I hope you know how special you are, and howmuch light you have brought to all who are lucky enough to know you.Especially me. I say it all the time and I will never stop… in the words ofauntie Drew, I was born the day you were born. I love you. ❤️ Mama,” Paltrowcontinued.

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Paltrow previously opened up about sending Apple away to school in a sit downwith CBS Sunday Morning that aired in September. The proud mom hasn’t sharedany details about where Apple is going to school or what she is studying.

During the interview, Tracy Smith asked Paltrow how she felt about herdaughter starting college, to which she replied, “I know this sounds nuts, butit feels almost as profound as giving birth.”

On Thursday, the Cello Biennale starts in Amsterdam, one of the largest celloevents in the world. There is classical, jazz, pop, world music, bothtraditional and more modern. If only there was a cello in it. Among the bignames are many young talents. NRC spoke to Benjamin Kruithof and ChiekoDonker Duyvis, and asked them which cellists on the program inspired them:

Benjamin Kruithof – ‘Cellists are lovely people.’

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Benjamin Kruithof won the previous National Cello Competition, which is why heis allowed to perform at this Biennale with a large symphony orchestra. “Ihave always associated playing the cello with pleasure.”

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Anyone with a passion for languages ​​and accents is highly recommended tostart a conversation with cellist Benjamin Kruithof (23). He speaks acourteous and colorful mixture of languages ​​in each other’s accent: Dutch asthe basis, but the mixture you get when you have a Dutch father and a Flemishmother. He pours a Luxembourg-French sauce over it, because Kruithof was bornand grew up in Luxembourg. And that time in German, because he has been livingand studying classical cello in Berlin for five years now. Kruithof: “At homewe always spoke Dutch, but I must have a small accent, don’t I?”

The Kruithof family had a complete string quartet at home: mother plays theviolin and sister too, father plays the viola. Benjamin was also the first toget hold of a violin and a viola, but he soon “let those instruments be”. Hedid not find the viola exciting enough, because his father was much too niceas a teacher.

A family friend and cello teacher gave him a cello at the age of six and agreat first impression of the instrument. “He left the technique for a while,but started making me enthusiastic about the music. We only played bits that Iliked. That is why I have always associated playing the cello with pleasure. Ithink that’s why I still like to practice so much, even things that aren’treally necessary. I like to sit down with friends in the evening to sidereading. Then we just grab sheet music from one or the other and we’re goingto try that out.”

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At the previous Cello Biennale in 2020, Benjamin Kruithof convincingly won thecorresponding National Cello Competition. He received the first prize, theaudience prize and the prize for the best performance of the commissionedcomposition.

Among other things, he ended up with a lot of concerts in the Netherlands,enough to meet his goal of being in the Netherlands once a month (also forfriends and family). That turned out to be great, because “playing a lot ofconcerts teaches you things that you can’t learn in a rehearsal room: dealingwith stress and situations that demand just a little too much of you,rehearsing repertoire in a very short time; it makes you much moreprofessional.”

On a scale from experimental crossovers to purely traditional classical,Kruithof tends most towards the latter. Although he has recently been infectedby his more experimental Berlin fellow students. “I’m just really bad atimprovising. But as classical performers we can learn a lot from jazz and pop,especially in terms of freedom of form. We classics want to do everything asprecisely as possible from a book, and I am a big proponent of that, butsometimes we get so stuck in a score that we forget to play spontaneously. Iam now discovering that in Berlin.”

Catastrophically bad composer

That does not mean that he will be composing himself in the short term. “I’vetried, and I’m a catastrophically bad composer. I do not know why. I wouldadvise against buying a composition by Benjamin Kruithof at this point.” Buthe likes to improvise on his own evenings for fun. “As a musician you shouldnot forget that music is also your hobby.”

Kruithof has only just come out of another competition: he won the GeorgeEnescu competition in Bucharest, Romania in September. After that it was timeto recover. He therefore sees playing at the upcoming Biennale, also one ofthe prizes won in 2020, as a great start to his ‘new season’. He plays withthe Symphony Orchestra of the Conservatory of Amsterdam Poeme by HenriëtteBosmans, so unknown that he even managed to surprise his teacher in Berlin(“What a good piece!”).

In any case, his fellow cello students in Berlin are quite jealous. “Theywould all like to come along. The Biennale is the largest cello festival thereis, all cellists know it. It is unique that you are suddenly together in thesame building with only cellists, people who normally travel around the worldindividually. And it helps that cellists are lovely people. You don’t feel anydifference between generations, between newly arrived and young talent. It isa very inspiring place for a young cellist.”

Chieko Donker Duyvis – ‘Magic comes from being vulnerable.’

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As a child Chieko Donker Duyvis fell for the versatility of the cello, but asa classical conservatory student she felt caged. “I actually like being achameleon.”

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Chieko Donker Duyvis.

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Sometimes she strums like her cello is a guitar and sings a Brazilian song togo with it. Or she strokes broad lines and hums a cantilene above it –simultaneously, searchingly. As a child, cellist Chieko Donker Duyvis (1997)was happy with everything that was creative. To play. Draw. To sing. Writingstories. Playing the cello was one of those things. At fourteen, in additionto secondary school, she went to the young talent department of the AmsterdamConservatory “to learn to play better”.

It worked. “At the conservatory I learned to play the cello well, technicallyI now have a solid foundation,” she says in an Amsterdam cafe. But in thoseyears she often felt searching and unhappy. “Everything revolved aroundperformance, perfection, the endless polishing of all the cracks.Individuality and fun were secondary to this. That didn’t feel right, Ithought it was suffocating.”

Those who receive classical training participate in a well-oiled, hyper-competitive structure. “Getting out there because you want ‘somethingdifferent’ is quite something,” says Chieko Donker Duyvis. “I used to writeand sing my own music at home, secretly. I didn’t know exactly what I wantedyet. It felt like I had to come out with my creative side.”

Improvising with cello and vocals

Only when she distanced herself from the performance cult did the actuallysimple answer sink in: “I have a strength in me that comes out better as asinger, composer and improviser than as a classical cellist. I’m going to makemusic in a way that makes me happy.”

She took jazz lessons, studied vocal technique, improvisation and composition.“My curiosity was finally allowed to play a role again, and with that the funreturned. I now see myself more as a maker who tells a story using cello andvocals. The two increasingly merge into each other in my improvisations. Ienjoy working with dancers, artists and theater makers to keep learning andexploring uncharted paths.”

Her Dutch father and Brazilian-Japanese mother, both artists, encouraged herto remain open to everything, she says. Formative experiences were also hermany trips to Brazil. “The warmth and spontaneity, the freer way of expression– I miss that here. There, music is a much more natural presence in everydaylife. That is very connecting.”

She now also seeks connection in the concerts with her own ensemble, withwhich she plays her own compositions inspired by Brazilian music, jazz andclassical impressionism. The recording of a debut album is already in theagenda.

‘The Vermicelli family’

One of the other interdisciplinary projects in which she is currentlyparticipating – as part of the Cello Biennale – is the family performance TheVermicelli . family , in which she also plays the cello, sings and acts.“People often act as if you have to specialize, as if it’s always better. Butspecialization also means that you lose something: openness, contact. Iactually like being a chameleon.”

What she makes is “free but not without obligation”, she says. “I am really aperfectionist. I really want to touch people. The accessibility that thisrequires is hard work. First zoom in endlessly on all the details, then zoomout again and rediscover your spontaneous beginner mindset.”

Singing makes her life as a performing artist even richer. “It was scary inthe beginning. Singing is an even more direct way of expressing yourself thanplaying the cello: there I show my deepest feelings, my vulnerability. But theconnection you can feel with the audience from there is fantastic. Magichappens when you make yourself vulnerable. I will never forget the first timethat really worked: the premiere this summer of my own music as New Maker forthe Grachtenfestival. I had the feeling of blossoming singing and finallybeing myself on stage.”

Benjamin Kruithof and Chieko Donker Duyvis at the Cello Biennale. October20-29. Info: cellobiennale.nl

On Wednesdays Howard Stern Show he discussed West’s comments and continuedsupport of them in a string of interviews.

“I almost don’t want to give any energy to this Kanye West character,” theSiriusXM host said. “I don’t know much about Kanye West,” who has bipolardisorder. “I’m not big into the rap scene, but he is … I’m really tired ofpeople excusing his behavior by saying, ‘Well, he’s just mentally ill.'”

His co-host Robin Quivers added, “So was Hitler and someone elected him to runa country.”

Stern said “a lot of media organizations” were giving Ye “attention” over his”wacky, antisemitic rant he feels free to spout” after earlier this monthdeclaring he would go “death con 3 On JEWISH PEOPLE” — he’s talked to FoxNews’s Tucker Carlson, Chris Cuomo and Piers Morgan, to name a few — and”rightly so” because they are “exposing him.”

Stern said growing up Jewish, he experienced anti-Semitism. People would startfights with him — “groups of people with chains hitting me all because they’vebeen taught the Jews are evil and killed Jesus. What the f***. I didn’t killJesus.”

Speaking of West’s interview on Cuomo’s show on Monday, he said, “Good lord,you gotta hear the s this guy’s into. And f this mental illness, self-defense thing … ‘Oh yeah, he’s just mentally ill, don’t worry about it.'”

Stern wondered why, if West is “so mentally ill … they don’t they appoint aconservator over his money like they did with poor Britney Spears? … You knowwho was mentally ill? The guy that shot up that synagogue in Pittsburgh. Ifhe’s that mentally ill, let’s commit him somewhere already.”

Stern played clips from Cuomo’s interview. One had West ranting about the”Jewish underground media mafia” canceling him for the White Lives Mattershirt he wore to his Yeezy show this month. He also complained that the mediadoesn’t refer to him as “billionaire,” “inventor” and “visionary,” only”rapper.”

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“Guess what, douchebag,” Stern said. “When they write about me, they call me’the shock jock.’ You don’t have control over [it]. You’re a rapper. That’swhat you are. That’s how you became famous. If a newspaper article doesn’tpoint out the fact that you’re some sort of designer or genius, maybe that’snot because he’s Jewish, but maybe because he just doesn’t put that muchthought into who the f*** you are and what your business is.”

Stern called the whole thing “so depressing,” saying “Kanye used to be funcrazy, now he’s like Hitler.” He also pointed out that Jewish people make upjust “2.4% of the total US population,” adding, “I don’t think they’re yourproblem, Kanye.”

The same day, Jon Stewart called it “mind-blowing” how easily antisemiticcomments flow “from people’s mouths.”

He said on his podcast that the word antisemitic “just doesn’t even carry itanymore. It’s just weird, Jew paranoia bulls***.” Stewart, who was also raisedJewish, said West was putting all Jews into one category while viewing non-Jews as individuals.

“If you are Jewish, then you’re part of the Jewish mafia,” he said. “But ifyou’re not, then you’re just a guy who is ad*** to him in business.”

While Stern and Stewart join others including Jamie Lee Curtis, John Legendand Sarah Silverman in speaking out against West’s comments, West continues tospout them. On Wednesday, he appeared on Piers Morgan Uncensored and gave awhat we will generously call a partial apology for the “death con 3 on Jewishpeople” remark.

Morgan asked West if he now regrets his comment and West first replied, “No.Absolutely not,” which repeated several times. He said he made the commentknowing it was racist: “Yes, I fought fire with fire.”

Later in the interview, however, West did say, “I will say I’m sorry for thepeople that I hurt with the defcon [comment]… I felt like I caused hurt andconfusion. And I’m sorry for the families of the people that had nothing to dowith the trauma that I have been through.”

In another part, he ranted about President Biden not taking meetings withbillionaire Elon Musk, calling it “fing retarded.” He acknowledges that heuse of a derogatory term that is outdated and offensive but doubled down. “Iknow I’m not supposed to say that, Biden, but that’s fing retarded.”

With new confidence in his sobriety, Matthew Perry is ready to share hisstory.

His new memoir, Friends, Lovers and the Big Terrible Thing (available Nov.1) chronicles his journey in life — and his harrowing battle with addiction.

“I wanted to share when I was safe from going into the dark side of everythingagain,” Perry, 53, tells PEOPLE exclusively in this week’s cover story. “I hadto wait until I was pretty safely sober, and away from the active disease ofalcoholism and addiction to write it all down. And the main thing was, I waspretty certain that it would help people.”

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Perry opens his book with a frightening drug-related experience where he washospitalized for five months after his colon burst.

“I thought it would be grabbing. Especially to people who have this problem,and how dark it can get,” he explains. “The doctors told my family that I hada two-percent chance to live. That’s the time I really came close to my lifeending. I was put on an ECMO machine, which does all the breathing for yourheart and your lungs. Every doctor says it’s a Hail Mary. No one survivesthat. So the big question is why? Why was I the one that survived? There hasto be some kind of reason.”

The actor was in a coma for two weeks. “I woke up and realized I had acolostomy bag,” he recalls. “They said, ‘It’s all too messy down there. Wecan’t do surgery. But in about a year you can reverse that.’ It was prettyhellish having one because they break all the time.”

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The experience led Perry to one of his greatest resolutions — to stop takingprescription opioids.

“My therapist said, ‘The next time you think about taking OxyContin, justthink about having a colostomy bag for the rest of your life,'” he says. “Anda little window opened, and I crawled through it, and I no longer wantOxyContin.”

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Perry was also able to quit drinking after he had an experience in his kitchenwhere he believes he sensed God.

“It was this bright yellow object that became all-encompassing. I couldn’t seethe kitchen anymore,” he recalls. “It was just this light, and I felt lovedand understood, and in the company of God or whatever. My dad was right nextto me and we were holding hands and I was praying when it started, which issomething I rarely did. It was like God showed me what’s possible. And thensaid, ‘Okay. Now you go learn this.'”

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While he prefers not to disclose how long he’s currently been sober, he doesstill count each day.

“It’s important, but if you lose your sobriety, it doesn’t mean you lose allthat time and education,” he says. “Your sober date changes, but that’s allthat changes. You know everything you knew before, as long as you were able tofight your way back without dying, you learn a lot.”

When it comes to gratitude, Perry has learned that “everything starts withsobriety. Because if you don’t have sobriety, you’re going to lose everythingthat you put in front of it, so my sobriety is right up there,” he says.

“I’m an extremely grateful guy. I’m grateful to be alive, that’s for sure,” headds. “And that gives me the possibility to do anything.”

For more on Matthew Perry, pick up the latest issue of PEOPLE, onnewsstands everywhere Friday.

Friends, Lovers and the Big Terrible Thing hits bookshelves Nov. 1.

If you or someone you know is struggling with substance abuse, please contactthe SAMHSA helpline at 1-800-662-HELP.