DWTS Lindsay Arnold Details the Emotional Rollercoaster of Pregnancy After a Fertility Struggle

Lindsay Arnold can remember the moment she finally let out the breathe shehadn’t realized she’d been holding.

After months of trying for her second child with husband of seven years, SamCusick and weeks of what she calls “cautious, cautious optimism,” followinga positive test, the Utah-based pair turned up to that all-important first OB-GYN appointment feeling, admittedly, more than a bit nervous.

Then, “we got to do our first ultrasound and got to hear our baby’sheartbeat,” the pregnant Dancing With the Stars pro revealed in an exclusiveinterview with E! news. “And it’s honestly the best feeling in the world.”

She actually wasn’t sure if it would feel quite as magical as when she wasexpecting now-23-month-old daughter sage “because it’s not the firsttime,” she explained of the baby she’ll welcome next May, “but, truly, thereis nothing quite like the confirmation that you have life inside of your body.That’s just the coolest thing that you could ever experience.”

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Particularly when you’ve already experienced one of the worst.

Because while the longtime ballroom dancer had vaguely heard about false-positive pregnancy tests, “you just don’t think it’s gonna happen to you,” sheadmitted. That is, until this past August, when she excitedly saw the stickchange after months of trying, only to get her period just days later. SaidArnold, “It was awful and it was so hard.”

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For the 28-year-old it was another crushing blow in what had become a fairlychallenging journey to give her little Sagey a sibling.

And while she understood that people were coming from a place of excitementwhen asking about her having another, “the more that I’ve gone throughstruggles, the more I’ve understood why that question can be really triggeringfor some people,” she explained. “Because a lot of times it’s like, ‘You needbaby no. 2’ and it’s like, ‘Well, yeah, I have wanted baby no. 2 for almost ayear now.'”

So while she appreciates that people are eager for more little Cusicks (“Weall love babies!”), the dancer noted, “At the same time, it’s like, ‘I _am_trying,’ and sometimes it does bring up wounds that maybe people don’tunderstand that they’re tapping into.”

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She’s found support in her community, both the IRL variety and the one she’sbuilt with her more than one million Instagram followers.

“I feel like for so long, we as women were told not to discuss the negativesand that if we couldn’t get pregnant it was because there was something wrongwith us,” Arnold explained. “And I hate that narrative. I want to change thatnarrative. There are so many incredible women who have already started tochange that.”

So she’s eager to join the chorus of voices. “You’re not alone, you really,really aren’t,” she stressed of what she’d tell people going through theirown struggles. “Lean on the people around you. Don’t be afraid to feel yourfeelings and go through all of those emotions because they’re valid and it’sreal.”

On her own personal emotional rollercoaster, she’s at the point where theexcitement levels have climbed almost to a tipping point. Seeing anotherpositive pregnancy test in September just a month after the false one, “wasjust the best feeling,” she said. “We’re so, so, so grateful.”

Having made the tough decision to step away from the ballroom for a beat evenbefore learning she was pregnant, she’s channeling all her focus into helpinggrow her three babies: Sage, set to turn 2 on Nov. 2, Baby Cusick (yes, theywill find out the sex, “I am always so impressed with people who can wait, Ijust don’t think I could”) and The Movement Club, the workout program she’sbeen dreaming about basically since she was a young dancer on the ballroomcircuit.

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The idea was born from the early months of her pregnancy with Sage. “This wasthe beginning of COVID,” she explained. “I wasn’t able to go workout anywhere,I was home all day and my body was changing rapidly. I just found that therewasn’t a space for me that I felt I could trust what I was doing, that I wasguided in a way that felt encouraging.”

And she realized if she felt this way after two-plus decades of dancing thatled her to the top eight on So You Think You Can Dance in 2012 and then her_DWTS_ gig the following year, “I’m sure there are other people out there whofeel the same way as I do.”

Her goal, she said of the online platform of five- to 30-minute equipment-freeworkouts, is to give women “of all ages, all stages of life a space where theycan feel safe, they can feel encouraged, no matter if they’re at the top oftheir game or if they’re just starting out. Come as you are there’s somethingfor everybody.”

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Including, of course, expectant and new mothers.

“Being pregnant is honestly one of the scariest things ever,” Arnold allowed.”You’re actively creating a human just by yourself, which is crazy. It’sscary.” When expecting Sage, “I remember feeling very scared, very unsure whatI could do with my body,” she said. “And as a dancer, somebody who’s alwaysmoved my body, that was unsettling.”

Hard at work on getting her pre and postnatal certification, “I know there arewomen out there who feel the same who are going through their first or thirdor second or fourth pregnancy or in their postpartum stages and feel uneasyand unsure,” Arnold said . “And I want to be the person who can guide them,help them move their bodies in ways that are safe, that feel good.”

And creating content for the platform, soon to be launched as an app, hasactually helped her battle the first trimester’s one-two punch of nausea andexhaustion.

Unable to indulge in the midday naps she enjoyed the first time around thanksto a very active toddler, “The Movement Club has been my saving grace,” sheshared. “Having this program to keep me accountable to move my body everysingle day, to know that people are looking to me to give them something tomove their body, it has helped so much.”

She knows it’s an approach that doesn’t work for everyone, “but for mepregnancy nausea, the best medication I can give that, is moving my body.Every time I do I feel like my tiredness goes away, my nausea is subdued. “

Her happiness, meanwhile, is through the roof.

Sage has already had some practice at that big sister life, spending hersummer with cousins Brooks 4 months, and Quincy , 2 months. “It’s beensuch a relief for me seeing her interact with them and actually really lovethem, because I feel like some kids just don’t like babies,” Arnold noted.”But she is definitely a baby lover. She wants to hold them. she wants to givethem their blanket. She doesn’t get jealous of me holding the babies. So I’mlike, ‘Okay, this is a good start. ‘”

because of course Arnold—the oldest of four daughters—has been fantasizingabout raising a troupe of tiny besties. “I daydream about the moment whereSage will get to meet her sibling for the first time,” she gushed. “Itliterally makes me emotional thinking about it. I mean, my siblings are mybest friends. So knowing that we’re creating that for Sage is such a coolfeeling.”

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While she can’t imagine how she can “possibly fit more love into this heart,”Arnold is more than ready for it. “I can’t wait to have more of that in ourlives and to just have another member of our family that is ours,” she sharedof what she’s most looking forward to. “It’s very cool that me and my husbandget to create our little best friends that we get to raise.”